if i could,i would stand in the middle of a road and let a car bang me..just to show him that i never thought of that person. i know what i did was wrong.. my mind cant think anymore. all that's in it is, I DONT LIKE HIM. it was stupid of me to ask you how to lie to him..but i swear, that i dont like him. i havent told my parents that you broke up with me. do you know how much i want to hug my mum or dad and cry my heart out that you're gone already. i cant. i know you're way hurt than i am. but again, know that i never liked him.

i still wake up,in hope that maybe what happened was a nightmare. i dont care about my o level results,really. because losing you is way worse than failing my o's. you kept on asking me what went wrong. i dont know why but i cant think. all i can think now is, i did not stand up for myself and be strong for you and for myself. is that what went wrong? even if i did that now, would you take me back. you have no idea how much i want this..i cant even be bothered to think which idiot likes me or doesnt like me. dont you know that im fing faithful to you?? everyone can see that. its just that what i did to you,made me lose that trust you had for me.

days will pass just like that.. soon you'll forget everything we once had. if i were to fail my o's, im begging my parents to let me leave this place. all i know now is, i never cheated on you. i even laughed when you told everyone i have someone else. when nothing even happened. because we both know that i'll never love anyone else again.

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