12 May

first and foremost,Happy Birthday Uncle Jimmy!!!! Thank you for everything..like aunty said,im very blessed because uncle loves me a lot. i feel as if i have another father. im really happy and no matter what happens,i know aunty and uncle will always be my friends. i love them so much.
i hope he'll have a long life and that he'll be healthy always. i also pray that mervyn will always be fillial to his parents because they love him so much.

baby followed me to NDC today..now that he knows,he can follow me anytime he wants to. i remember not allowing him to follow me those days..cause at that time we just started off and i wasnt very assured that if he knows about it,whether he'd leave or stay away from me or not. besides,our love wasnt really That strong as what we have today.

let me let you in on the details of my surgery,hahaha. i had to go through hell again after all these 9 years..first, inject twice,got the tooth out,but the fillings from root canal about 8 years ago was in my soft tissue so it was damn hard to get it out. they DUG AND DUG,thank god i was on anaesthesia. then came the horrifying part. doctor took out a sharp cutter and sliced my gum...i think my blood splattered on her shirt.hahhaha. then,dig dig dig.MORE INJECTIONS. then gave me a stitch which was traumatising. not enough right!the doctor said bleeding wasnt stopping,so INJECT again,then gave me another huge stitch. i want to cry..i wasnt afraid of the pain but my body was shaking like hell. im sure if baby went through what I went through,he'll definitely ask uncle to send him home after surgery.

poor baby love,when i saw him sleeping with his head on the chair,i teared immed. cause i was so touched. now you might say im easily touched..haha. then he was shivering!! i gave him my cardigan but i myself shivered also. but nvm..IT'S LOVE! MY LOVE. he waited for me for 4 hours. what i was touched, Again, was that he said, "you also always wait for me" im so glad he actually knows. i thought he never knew. followed him to eat,i didnt..i salute myself for being a huge fan of FOOD yet i didnt consume a single thing since i woke up.:) once im well,im gonna whack all those yummy food again.

then, walked around everywhere with a gauze in my mouth like some retard,yet baobao said im pretty. hahaa. i felt ugly. honestly! i was afraid he had no where to hide his face if people kept on staring at me. Followed him to Queenstown. went to that mall..forgotten its name. anyways, i saw the glow on baby's face when he saw that soccer shop,Weston something. Unfortunately, the anaesthesia went off and my head was spinning and i felt like fainting but i didnt tell baobao cause he was so engaged in finding the perfect Pro-Star. hehe. i knew how much he wanted to come to Queenstown so for him, i held on. then he wanted to go to city hall. i wanted to,also!!!! but i really couldnt take the pain and if it was too painful,i was afraid i might get a fever cause mine was a complicated extraction. i saw his face and i knew he was disappointed that i had to go home cause he really wanted to go to city hall. i felt helpless..so helpless.

from then on..i told myself..i really want to be with him always. no matter what happens,i have to stay strong for him. cause what we have is sooooo real. :)

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