the hurtful,contradicting things we do to each other. sorry.

it's been quite some time since my last post. i am sitting on my bed..still grumpy from being woken up by my dad's call.and also mervyn and jeev kept on talking when they were playing ps2..so cute but the annoying part is, mervyn's beginning to speak like some cheena. cb all.. lan here and there..and jiao wei. i guess this was how irritated he felt when he heard me speak in that malay accent. we must both stop it right away to prevent annoying each other..that is if you notice yourself the way you talk.

i seriously hope mervyn wont be like sanjeev, thinking he's in the right all the time and just cause he has the gift of the gap just like jeev does,he'll always win no matter what. i really felt peyton when i saw her cry and she said that she could not talk to jeev cause he'll always think he's the right one..mervyn was like that,still is..but not as bad as sanjeev. way not as bad i guess
and when he said that he didnt know why i went over to jeev's place anyways, it reminded me of what he told me that made me return him all his stuff. After all those months we've been together, he could actually,Finally,say that he actually hates me for being there all the time when with his friends cause he cant do whatever he wants and pleases. i seriously,went over,cause i felt bad that if i didnt,Lithia would be damn bored. i didnt want to cause i wanted to do my own stuff.not cause mervyn was there.

the guys will talk behind our backs and say how alike,how petty peyton and i are. but they dont know that it's really the littlest of things,actions that they do that hurt us the most. see? remember what i told b? that i dont want to see the day that you'll side jeev and i side peyton.
it seems like it's going to happen soon..i wont side anyone cause jeev is my good-est friend. and i love him so. but it's funny how you 2 are alike too..in some ways,just that you are better,so much better. that's why i thank god i found you!:))

sometimes when jeev and peyton fight,it's almost like a phobia to me cause i dont want it to happen to me and mervyn also.

1 year anni's coming soon..it seems to me like it's going to be just another ordinary day. i wish we could turn back time to June 2,2008. it's been kinda long since i last felt touched i guess. i want to make you feel touched too so im going to do something for ya but i dont feel like it cause im running outta time and if we're going to quarrel tonight online,we arent going out anymore..

RESTRICTIONS. i had a lot of restrictions,curfews before i met you. if my nanny were still here,WORSE. i went all out just to be there,stay up late with you or whatever..cause i know,with restrictions,we wouldnt be here together until today. i went against everyone..if they said that im stupid for doing this for my boyfriend who isnt going to be with me always,i dont give two flying fishes. cause i know im doing it for someone who loves me and has went through thick and thin with me. oh wells, i just felt like blogging about restrictions out of a sudden after receiving the call from daddy this morn.

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