sigh! i cannot get to sleep. i dont know why.... mervyn is MIA again. haha. all he replied was that he didnt play his ps3..sims 3 spoilt our day i guess. maybe not much mine,but his. but i was really angry just now. when im at home i feel like im suffering from anxiety all the time. it scares me cause i can be so positive and happy when im back from church and when im at mervyn's place but at home, it feels so different all over. what time should i go over to his place later? i shall wake up bright and early to study. but im feeling so sick,must be the hormones..no thanks to that monthly visit from Mrs.Period. i feel it coming,so very soon.

so i havent seen peyton for quite some time..and bryan,jeev,haoj..i just saw asri yesterday. oh yes yesterday! bb and i went to Ehub to watch the 11.50pm show,The Hangover. It was AWESOME! laughed so much. the picture of that funny chinese guy's peen is still in my head,yuck. but so funny. and as usual, when there were TITS, all the boys went "whoa..hello,wow.." that's the norm. Mervyn of course went ooh..whoa. hahaha. he could even ask "why their tits so Round and big huh?" in my heart i was like, "damn,youre defintely going to get laid,or get girls laid a hundred times cause see breasts only,you go wild." cause,common sense,ROUND AND DAMN FIRM TITS=SILICONE. -.-"""" but they like it anyways..guys.tsk tsk. oh wells. im keeping mine. not going to do anything to them. if my husband doesnt like it,then too bad. you arent that perfect down there either. HUHUHU. like what peyton said,they hate hearing that their weeners are small,tiny. haha. immature guys..i just cannot tahan la. just wanna whack their face. God gave us what we have,we should be happy and not change it.

that was a pretty tit-ty paragraph. i just get so hung up when asian boys complain that their gfs are either too small,or whatnot,when they themselves are pretty tiny down there. so mean. like i said,there's more to life than all these.

okay,so i watched the dou san ji san movie. it was so good,it was perfect.i cried so much.it was soooo hard keeping it from my mum that uncle jimmy was actually the GOG and the movie was based on his real life story. cause i know my parents will go round telling everyone blah blah blah. but, i want them to know that gambling can make them lose everything. they never learn their lesson. so i told my mom,then she told my dad,brother knew..but the good thing was,my parents understood the movie and his testimony,i was very happy i was smiling to myself in my own room. so i asked them,:"Where do you all get the money to play shares?" mummy said:"Haiya,loan money from people one la." so i went on.:" Isnt playing shares,GAMBLING?" her reaction was rather big and she said that it isn't gambling,it's INVESTMENT. so i just left the room and went to lie on my bed.

somehow,i see Marcus becoming like the old Uncle jimmy. i still strongly believe that Marcus is a good boy even though he's messy and inconsiderate. but something just tells me that we have to save him. now i see why the Christian population is increasing rapidly. It's because people do turn over a new leaf when they visit a Christian church. I dont know why mervyn always makes fun of the Christians,even i do,last time. i still find them pretty weird but now i know why they keep on saying "God Loves You." cause he really does. maybe the teens feel that it is embarrasing to have such strong faith and all.. i still feel they exaggerate a little here and there but i really get what they're trying to tell me,us. it's so easy to give in to the devil,you know. everytime when negative thoughts come to my mind,i know that the devil is trying to change my views,my thoughts. im not exaggerating,Mervyn. but this is really how i feel..i know how much you hate it when people talk about God all the time.. guess you just havent been to church in a long while.

i feel like watching The Hangover again..that fat guy and the Chinese guy are damn funny. haha..and the baby is soooo cute!! oh yeah,i took 2 quizzes on How will your baby look like,and all my answers were Blonde babies,retook them again,still blonde! when Nadiah had brown hair and brown eyes which was so true cause she's def gonna marry a malay,i guess..but mine's blonde..what if i really marry a Caucasian? Hooray but not that enthusiastic anyways.. cause i love Mervyn right now. okay,enough of talking to myself. but it was so nice blogging. even though the blog doesnt reply me,i still feel pretty entertained cause there's no one to talk to right now. only the boyfriend but i guess he's busy. oh wells..night night:)

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